I like keeping things that I can’t quite understand.
I once bought an old copy of La Peste (The Plague) by Albert Camus;
from a flea market in India for 50 Rupees.
It was in French,
a language I am still trying to learn.
The corners of the book were eaten by termites;
some bookworms probably left it for the other ones to enjoy it.
I once got a book of Haikus as a gift from my wife.
She got it from a little bookshop, from somewhere in Québec.
The book has Haikus in Japanese (Translated to French),
and it holds in its pages a hope that someday
I’ll understand all those words without the need of a translator;
I’ll understand all those emotions without the need of a language.
I once got caught in an endless cycle of thoughts.
It felt like a fever dream,
that showed me memories I’d never lived, places I never willed to visit,
people I never dared to meet, destinations I never knew the existence of.
And everything I failed to understand from it,
I kept, in the deepest corners of my mind,
alongside my love for the life I try to live,
for I really like to keep all things
that I can’t quite really understand.